moving on

my sis is giving birth tm... and when i thought of that, a song popped up in my head and i started singing out loud. << 红蜻蜓 >> by 小虎队. my sis and i have liked this band (Little Tigers) since her teens, when she had every single cassette by them.

当烦恼越来越多
玻璃弹珠越来越少
我知道我已慢慢的长大
红色的蜻蜓曾几何时
也在我岁月慢慢不见了

translated as:
" When there seems to be more troubles
and less marbles
I know I'm slowly growing up
Dunno since when, the red dragonflies
slowly disappear..."

after singing two lines, i started tearing.....=|
coz i am suddenly reminded of the times when we still shared a room in our old flat, and we chat into the night. when we were still seeing each other everyday and knew almost everything abt each other. now she has married, and is going to be a mother. of course i;m happy that everything's gg fine, but sometimes i still wish that things could be reversed. marriage was one big milestone. becoming a mother is another milestone and i suddenly feel sad all over again. dunno why also.

think i'll never get over this issue, and it's a little ridiculous coz there isn't any concrete issue to begin with.