[seek out a star]

it's really tough when ur expectations and reality don't match. apparently i have to start moving along the following path.

aerospace engr --> mechanical engr --> engr --> non-technical

perhaps the time is not right, perhaps my skills are not ideal.
i've always been relieved that i love mech engineering, becuz i wont starve to death as an engr. (u know, in contrast to being an artist or something)
suddenly i get a bucket of iced water over my head.
Hey. things don't seem to be working out as planned/expected.

so....i have to (change my thinking and) make a detour which may or may not lead to the desired destination.

=)
[hold on till the end]