Saturday, September 10, 2005

busy with nothing

busy with looking at baby sleep, looking at baby cry, looking at baby staring into space, going for discussions which don't really involve me, blah blah...
dunno how i spent my wk.

my employment stuff is slightly complicated. i thought i could sign the contract with edb once the other pple's visas are done, so we can all sign together. but no, my own contract requires a valid visa which can only be applied 3 mths before my departure date, which is prob jul next yr. hence i can't sign my contract yet!
ugh... so messy... the saesl hr said they will iron things out with edb etc. hope and hope nothing goes wrong. so many uncertainties and weird things. certainly a far cry from a simple, normal job in sg.

one way to train up a forearm for tennis, table tennis or badminton (or just to slap somone harder) is to mop the floor everyday. use only one hand to maneuver the mop. =D

hmm main thing i wanna write abt today is abt the single parents feature in the paper. one of the "case studies" was a ntu undergrad, titled "Dad's duplicity makes it hard for her to trust anyone."

she described her father as a loving and caring one, who makes sandwiches for her breakfast and so on. the daughter-father relationship is also strong. however, at the same time, he was having an affair. after many quarrels with the mum, he eventually left home to live with the other woman. she finds it hard to believe how someone who loves her so much can betray her and have an affair. when a close, loved one does things like dat, how much trust can u ever put in others?
she ended with saying, "when i graduate next yr, he doesn't deserve to come for the ceremony because he did not contribute at all to my uni education."
it's heartbreaking to hear such bitter words coming from a young person....
i was particularly touched by this story because the events are hauntingly familiar, and instantly my mind wanders to my father's mysterious female fren. he is deeply defensive abt her, and he calls her almost every night using a public phone. it's still ongoing, and i cope by ignoring his actions.
i am still pretty much a trusting person, too trusting in fact. my father paid for my entire 23k uni edu, he helps out at home, and seems like a perfect husband and father. only flaw is that mysterious fren. i feel really hurt each time i think abt it and as of now, i'm crying. sick of crying each time i think of it, but still cant help it. so lousy.
hello, i'm 23 and no longer a dependent. but things like these still affect me a lot. ARGH.

true, there are real single parent households and other fragmented families, but when such things happen to me, i will be "selfish" and block out everybody else's plights and moan n groan abt my own only.

2 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

dunnoe wat to say but guess being a guy he should noe wats the rite thing to do. take things in ur stride...

Sunday, September 11, 2005 2:42:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hm i disagree with ur frd's comments. sometimes knowing what is right or wrong doesn't stop pp from doing things that we noe arent right. i know how u feel though - the immense jealousy & irritation. gimme a call if u need someone to talk to ok?

Thursday, September 15, 2005 11:39:00 AM  

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