end of 08

humans are baffling.
alienation
solidarity
silence
mundane
robotic
devoid
monotonous
plodding
uninterested
INproficiency
lost
tired
unthinking
breathing
(not)living
crying
stoning
wandering
banging
circling
falling
drowning
stifling
crashing
strangling
shrugging
moving
working
eating
playing
laughing

crying

stay away.

what brings tears to your eyes?

a few months ago, i broke a promise i made to a close fren. This person got furious and we had a couple of showdowns. we are not on talking terms anymore, becuz of what i did, and also becuz i can't bring myself to patch it up. i've hurt this fren, and this fren has hurt me in his/her reaction. there is an intense fear in me which is screaming "don't patch up! stay away! this is the best way to prevent anymore hurt on both sides!"
trust me, it's awful to lose a relatively new but close friendship this way. but it has also reminded me to treasure frens, especially the long term ones who have stuck with me through the years, who know me inside out, who can listen to any sort of crap theory i propose, who offer new perspectives when i can only see inky darkness, who i turn to when i am feeling down.....and the list goes on.

so this is just a simple note to all: remain true to your friends, and DO NOT forsake old frens especially.

p/s: dont ask me for details, i can't give any more. =X

a new chapter

i'm beginning on a new chapter in my life. just to increase the secrecy, i'm not going to say what it's about. It's nothing spectacular, nothing that pple can detect.
but it is a big change inside of me.

And I move forward bravely!!

(dont be afraid i'm losing my mind..=P)

merry christmas '07!

had a great class gathering yesterday to celebrate christmas, and also chris' bday. lucky guy has many pple celebrating his bday with him. =P

drank a considerable amount, but i drank even more water, so i didnt feel too high. when we left the condo at abt 230am, there was a police road block right outside. those frens who drove but were more scared decided not to drive and took rides from the others. i shared a cab with a tampines-er. heheeehhe.

so tired! slept at almost 4....... and at 3 the previous night. goodness. i'm getting too old for late night fun. =P

merry xmas everyone!

first pics in a while

here i am again!

went on a quick hike up singapore's only hill - the world-reknowned bukit timah. Here my dad demonstrates how to make a cap out of a handkerchief:


good view of one of the 4 knots

found some amusing labels in ntuc thereafter:


found on a box of lipton teabags


(sp??)

test

i've officially worked for 9 mths. i won't say it's been exciting, but it's certainly not boring. crises happen one after another, each one of a different nature from the previous.

think i have changed a bit, and i'm inclining towards a more risk-taking mentality than before. like from zero risk to 0.1 risk? =P

many many thoughts in my mind which i'm not ready to write it all out yet. need to mull over them a bit more. =|

i love this song: 一个像夏天 一个像秋天. look for it on baidu.

bye for now. i can't promise to be a frequent writer from now on.

reflections

1. i was on a 1-day course today, and for the first time since i started work, i saw weekday daylight. Twice! it was absolutely wonderful and refreshing.
walking home, i was wondering why this old man was jogging on a pavement next to mine. then i realised with a start that he was jogging on a mini-track! there is a red rubber track on the slope next to the pavement i was on. i couldn't believe my eyes, coz i have walked the same way for at least 40 times (since i started work) and i never knew of the existence of this rubber track. I thought it was just grass on the slope.........

2. i always give pple the benefit of the doubt when it comes to trust, until they give me reasons to withdraw it. i'll have to remember to make a permanent withdrawal and not just a suspension.
Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.

its great to have u pple as frens