been feeling down

i dunno why, but i suddenly realise that i have been quieter and perhaps more gloomy or less hyper these 2 mths. maybe coz i feel like i'm stagnating at work or not learning enough, either at the office or reading up at home. there is plenty to learn, and i just aim to scratch the surface of a few areas. but i have been lazy and not even starting to learn. sigh sigh...
i kind of made a small promise to myself not to waste this training period, and that i should pick up something new everyday. at the end of each day, i wanna be able to say, "today, i learnt...."
it doesnt even have to be technical; it could be something like learning how to write emails in a nice manner and not sound demanding, etc.
another mental note: must be more inquisitive and proactive. if someone asks me to collect data on a certain engine component, i should ask their intention for data collection, and also know the basic functions and problems of that component, etc. not just blindly collect data....

perhaps i should go out with frens more often. maybe the work-home-work routine is having some kind of adverse effect on me. blah blah blah.....