been quiet
i know it's been an awfully long time since i last blogged. i didnt want to just blog abt what i bought/cooked/ate everyday - i've decided to blog when i really have some thoughts..
hmm...firstly, ever since i signed the acceptance letter for this TAP, i've always had this question uppermost in my mind: will i have a job at sa*sl after 18 mths? now i'm in a new environment and am surrounded by fellow TAP trainees almost all the time. i've been telling myself to not see them as competitors, but it's very hard, esp when it's like 99% confirmed 2 pple out of 9 will not be employed. the only other female is almost a confirm employment, and she is very pal with all the engineering heads....supposedly partly coz of her twin assets n she can speak cantonese with them. i cant help but make a comparison. if the crunch comes down to choosing between the 2 females, IMO she will be chosen.
and then there is the guy whom i worked with in sg for 9 mths and who is my housemate now. he has been in contact with pple from at least 2 depts (one is engg) who i didnt know he was particularly close with. i've always felt that he is a better worker and can get along well with the technicians. and now that he's still in contact with the company pple even while in derby, i feel even worse.
yes, even though these 2 pple are employed, it doesnt mean i wont get employment. and the company looks set to grow so i really shouldnt be worrying. but i cant get rid of such thoughts. they are like a stubborn weed root which grows into a full size plant when u thought u had gotten rid of it.
next: relationships matters. not the bgr kind....sorry to disappoint.
there is a sa*sl perm staff here for approval-holder training. back in sg, pple always paint a bad picture of him behind his back, and pretend to be his buddies in his face. over here, he's quite close with almost everyone (tap) and they even go on trips together. i find that perplexing. is he a gd guy or a bad guy? is everyone pretending to like him when they actually dont? if pple are like dat, surely i would need to beef up my defence wall agst them as well.
argh...just rants that are likely to recur over the next 8 mths.
hmm...firstly, ever since i signed the acceptance letter for this TAP, i've always had this question uppermost in my mind: will i have a job at sa*sl after 18 mths? now i'm in a new environment and am surrounded by fellow TAP trainees almost all the time. i've been telling myself to not see them as competitors, but it's very hard, esp when it's like 99% confirmed 2 pple out of 9 will not be employed. the only other female is almost a confirm employment, and she is very pal with all the engineering heads....supposedly partly coz of her twin assets n she can speak cantonese with them. i cant help but make a comparison. if the crunch comes down to choosing between the 2 females, IMO she will be chosen.
and then there is the guy whom i worked with in sg for 9 mths and who is my housemate now. he has been in contact with pple from at least 2 depts (one is engg) who i didnt know he was particularly close with. i've always felt that he is a better worker and can get along well with the technicians. and now that he's still in contact with the company pple even while in derby, i feel even worse.
yes, even though these 2 pple are employed, it doesnt mean i wont get employment. and the company looks set to grow so i really shouldnt be worrying. but i cant get rid of such thoughts. they are like a stubborn weed root which grows into a full size plant when u thought u had gotten rid of it.
next: relationships matters. not the bgr kind....sorry to disappoint.
there is a sa*sl perm staff here for approval-holder training. back in sg, pple always paint a bad picture of him behind his back, and pretend to be his buddies in his face. over here, he's quite close with almost everyone (tap) and they even go on trips together. i find that perplexing. is he a gd guy or a bad guy? is everyone pretending to like him when they actually dont? if pple are like dat, surely i would need to beef up my defence wall agst them as well.
argh...just rants that are likely to recur over the next 8 mths.
posted by who? at 4:50 AM
3 Comments:
i find it just as tough. like one minute, someone wills ay something bad about this person, the next, they are all pally. anyways, for you, think you just concentrate on doing your work well and getting along wif colleagues. our jc class the best la.
Aiya, look on the brighter side, if you don't get into SAESL(choy), just take it as a 9mths vacation in UK that is paid for by EDB lor...
GH
trish: hehe...yes. the frens u make in sch are usually the best!! =P i have a sudden craving for a walk along east coast, breathing in the sea breeze....
gh: yah i know...pple tell me that, and once in a while i can convince myself to think this way. but more often, i dont. hehe
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