i don't believe it!!! =O

You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

long day

my leg muscles, esp the thighs, are feeling really tired now. i think i have to rub them a bit before i fall asleep, otherwise i can't continue with my orchard office-clothes-buying marathon part 2. part 1 was today, and i made two reservations for a top and a pair of everbest shoes respectively. the shoes are damn ex, but i'm hoping to get a nice discount tm. hmm...other potential buys are lip gloss, blusher (n brush), necklace, g2000 skirt n tight-neck top, nail polish and a swimsuit. uh....bought nothing today but spent a bomb on food. esp my very pathetic dinner.

had dinner with 3 very dirty guys at the beer place at millenia walk. main course was $24+++ and i had a starter instead, hoping the serving would be reasonable. i have a small appetite anyway. the starter wasnt cheap: $14+++. a small little piece of grilled fish on a few pieces of veg soaked in balsamic vinegar + 2 potatoes, each the size of a moth ball. i'm not kidding. yup, that was dinner. and we all had beer. smallest qty was 0.5 litre mug, which 3 of us had. the remaining guy, a hairy hard core alcoholic, had a 1 litre mug. that is a negligible amt of alcohol to him.
i didnt finish the mug. left 2 big mouthfuls for the hardcore becuz my eyes were getting red already. that's my body's way of saying ok, i;m comfortably full of alcohol now. with so little food in my tummy, and becuz i still had to take public transport (aka mrt n bus), i decided to donate the last bit. so i think i drank abt the equivalent of 1 can of beer. that mug cost $15+++.

in the meantime, i was being entertained by 2 noisy dirty guys who know more abt the female anatomy than me, while the 3rd dirty guy sat there, stoned. (he had 0.5l too)

btw, in case anyone is still wondering, those guys are good friends of mine, but i definitely will not get attached to any of them. the 2 noisy ones are attached and always looking at paurn (and 1 of them openly cheats on his gf) while the 3rd stoned guy is trying to get his first gf. all of them laughed in my face when i said i would get a virgin bf. hmpf, i will show them! haha....virgin bf or nothing!

okok...time to give my legs a little rub and off to bed. gotta get up early to shop tm. SHOPPING IS TIRING.......

hmm

left with only a few remaining carefree days, i begin to think abt the things i did or did not do in the past months.

the most obvious change is the bunch of pple i spend most time with. it's all a matter of convenience really. in sch i was mostly with classmates, or ex-classmates who were still in school. now i see my parents a lot, and also a bunch of pple who were enjoying carefree (aka worry-a-lot-about-getting-a-job) days with me. i'm glad that two of these frens are starting work on the same day as me! =)

meeting up with different grps of frens take some effort. it's not like having lunches of convenience with colleagues. and i really am very lazy and inert when it comes to these things, so please frens, please ask me out! hahahhaha =P

i feel like a blunt knife which hasn't been sharpened for ages, such that i'm beginning to gather moss on the blade! (my hormones are driving me crazy. i mixed in the "rolling stone gathers no moss" as well)
hmm...when was the last time i did some thinking? was it during fyp? uh..or in some uni exam? A levels? ok it sure was a really long time ago.

gosh gosh i dunno what i'm rambling abt..this isnt me!
*shake myself violently*
"who are you?! get out of my body! now!!!"

bluprplbu.

yeah time to sleep! (hehe..this is me alright!)

btw, to be very bhb and ks, in case anyone wants to give me a bday present, pls contribute a bk voucher towards the "Help yiwen own an astro bk from borders Fund". =) your contributions, no matter how (in)significant, will be greatly appreciated.
thank you and i look forward to hearing from u.

yours sincerely,
yiwen.

(AHH i m gg crazy)

deadline for freedom: 2nd oct 1159 hrs

finally i will start to earn some money. i'm going to start work on 3rd oct!
after so many mths of bumming ard (uh, last 4 yrs actually), i'm going to have just a wk of freedom left.....sobsob

meanwhile, zephan is growing bigger + heavier. =P

SIMS 2 NIGHTLIFE EXPANSION PACK!!

hahaha yeah i got it liao!!! even less blogs from me for a while at least!
meanwhile, i'm gettin tired out trying to pacify baby zephan .
seeing his face scrunching up and getting ready to wail is a nightmare. a blank face is utter bliss.
of course, my sis gets it worse coz she spends half the time feeding him.

a $2 note

a few days ago, my father told me something which happened to his colleague.

one morning, as the colleague was opening his door to go to work, he found a $2 note wedged in a space between the door grilles. that's weird already, because i can't imagine how wind can blow paper into that kind of position, and what more money?
this colleague buys 4D regularly, so he betted on the note's serial number. i assume he took the last 4 digits or something.

he won the first prize.

this is not the first time he won first prize; besides first, he has also won 2nd n third, and consolations.

talk abt luck!

long time no write

really tired today. my parents have got more energy than me.

we went to the lower pierce reservoir, hoping to find our way to the famous suspension bridge. but no, we were on the wrong side of the nature reserve, and decided not to go find the bridge after all. then we walked on a wooden trail (栈道）which sloped up at some parts and down at others. it was a brisk walk, with steps along some of the way. piangz....we walked non stop for 40 mins (very briskly!) then finally returned to the car. wah lao. want to die already.....

then we had dinner at the maxwell mkt. i had the nice fish meat beehoon soup! yummy! =D although i was bursting full, i still dabaoed mutton soup for supper hehehhe....=P

next, we walked thru the chinatown streets and looked at all the "red-meat thailand" pomelos. they are supposed to be a good breed. there were a couple of stalls selling mooncakes very cheaply, abt half price of the normal ones, but they were "branded" ones too. my dad said that these are prob fakes, as the established brands like 大中国 and 大同 would not compromise on the price even on the eve of mid autumn. i see!

there were a few stalls selling healthy wheatgrass juice. one was outstandingly expensive, $2.50 per cup, compared to the others selling $1.50 per bottle. but his style is really unique. the rest just displayed bottles of green stuff in styrofoam boxes filled with ice blocks and water, but he displayed a few trays of growing wheatgrass. in the centre of his stall was a prominently placed blender. he put a bunch of wheatgrass in, then added ice and water. an angmoh was videoing the whole process - i assume he was buying the drink. hmm....if his drink wasnt so ex,i'd bought from him. at least u know it's fresh, and it's being done right in front of u. i think he will strike it rich one day....

besides buying mooncakes, we also had another task - to buy new clothes for the baby. yup, 6 wks old zephan is outgrowing his 0-6 mths clothes. clutching a sample of his current shirt, we browsed at a few shops but could find nothing suitable. well, looks like we have to go back to a particular shop in hougang to buy.

by this time, i was totally exhausted already. luckily my parents felt the same (finally!) and we headed home. =P

yay now wait for my fish meat beehoon to be digested, and then i can heat up my mutton SOUP!

another trip back to rg

it was fun, chatting with mrs mak (mostly) and mrs ang over a lunch in the canteen. and there was also one other teacher (i don't even recognise her!) who chatted enthusiastically with us. she tried to convince us that the teaching career is the best way to stay young, as the mind is constantly being challenged. (haha... if i knew this teacher, i'd have said, "yah, try saying that to my uni classmates who have just started teaching. headaches and sore throats all the time.")

jiaying and emmy have fantastic memories, esp emmy, who could tell us more abt our sec 1 & 2 days than we ourselves. =D jiaying also remembered the jigsaw pieces that mrs ang gave out at the end of sec3. poor mrs ang couldn't remember anything abt jigsaws at all, and insisted that she had taught us in sec2. tsktsk =P

as in usual meet-ups, we (emmy, jiaying n i) tried to update mrs mak on the new events which had happened to the various members of our class. like who has a new bf, who is studying wat, who is staying where, etc. and mrs mak also updated us on the few "old" teachers left. actually, it's only when i got home then i realised that m.mak had given me a rather maternal feel.

haha..she tried to list out our teachers in sec 3 & 4, and we had a lot of recollections when we heard the names. haha...things like the wee-shaped walleys and CONCOOORRRRRRRDDDDEEEEE. (gosh, i can't believe emmy actually said it out!) then m.mak tried to bait us into saying what we associated her with. hehe...of cuz we din say anything. =P

anyway she had to run off to a class, the modern day version of pastoral care.

btw, one teacher also came up to us and chatted a bit. i thought she was strangely familiar, and tried very hard not to frown at her. she reminded me of a teacher, but i couldn't pinpoint who. the weird thing was, she looked a lot like joanna low to me! (joanna is the pit in charge of my sec 1/7 class) piangz...havent been so puzzled for a long time! after she left, i asked the others she is.
turns out that she is ms chan yin lai, who taught math in sec 1. but she really did look like joanna low! =S

sometime during our chat, lu sir came along and said to me in mandarin, "jiaying is a lawyer, what are you?" for a split second, i was in a panic. he had caught me by surprise and my panic was further compounded by the fact that i couldn't think of the chn word for "engineer". i managed to say it out right, after saying "HUH?" and making him repeat his question. =P

fyi, ms concorde is still a miss, and the geog mrs mak gone off for further studies (has 3 kids), the geog ms foo lingling is also still a miss, ms chan yin lai is now a mrs something, emmy revealed that mrs v. wong threw a tantrum 3 times in a wk once, and we all agreed that when she was angry, her eyes nearly popped out. there are a lot more male teachers (seems like half the staff is male!). emmy commented that they all seem to be similarly "deh". the canteen portions are quite small, and i had a second lunch when i got home.

u know whattt??????

my 2nd biggest discovery today is that no soft drinks are sold in sch!!!!!! GOSH!!!
no more "uncle, 1 cup mixed", which meant lemon tea + coke + sprite + fanta = fanta.
can u imagine running 2.4km in the hot sun, then u run to the vending machine and NO ICE COLD COKE????

and my BIGGEST discovery is that FRIED FOOD is banned except on wednesdays!! ahhhhhhhh
gosh gosh. that's so terrible! what's malay food without fried stuff? and no hash browns n nuggets either!!!! =(

ok...the gd news is, if we ever want to eat the malay fried chicken/wing or drumstick, we know which day to go back.

edit: just read emmy's blog. she also feels that she has retained more memories than us!
also, every single teacher told me i look exactly the same as before. probably coz i've got standard school girl black hairstyle. =|

busy with nothing

busy with looking at baby sleep, looking at baby cry, looking at baby staring into space, going for discussions which don't really involve me, blah blah...
dunno how i spent my wk.

my employment stuff is slightly complicated. i thought i could sign the contract with edb once the other pple's visas are done, so we can all sign together. but no, my own contract requires a valid visa which can only be applied 3 mths before my departure date, which is prob jul next yr. hence i can't sign my contract yet!
ugh... so messy... the saesl hr said they will iron things out with edb etc. hope and hope nothing goes wrong. so many uncertainties and weird things. certainly a far cry from a simple, normal job in sg.

one way to train up a forearm for tennis, table tennis or badminton (or just to slap somone harder) is to mop the floor everyday. use only one hand to maneuver the mop. =D

hmm main thing i wanna write abt today is abt the single parents feature in the paper. one of the "case studies" was a ntu undergrad, titled "Dad's duplicity makes it hard for her to trust anyone."

she described her father as a loving and caring one, who makes sandwiches for her breakfast and so on. the daughter-father relationship is also strong. however, at the same time, he was having an affair. after many quarrels with the mum, he eventually left home to live with the other woman. she finds it hard to believe how someone who loves her so much can betray her and have an affair. when a close, loved one does things like dat, how much trust can u ever put in others?
she ended with saying, "when i graduate next yr, he doesn't deserve to come for the ceremony because he did not contribute at all to my uni education."
it's heartbreaking to hear such bitter words coming from a young person....
i was particularly touched by this story because the events are hauntingly familiar, and instantly my mind wanders to my father's mysterious female fren. he is deeply defensive abt her, and he calls her almost every night using a public phone. it's still ongoing, and i cope by ignoring his actions.
i am still pretty much a trusting person, too trusting in fact. my father paid for my entire 23k uni edu, he helps out at home, and seems like a perfect husband and father. only flaw is that mysterious fren. i feel really hurt each time i think abt it and as of now, i'm crying. sick of crying each time i think of it, but still cant help it. so lousy.
hello, i'm 23 and no longer a dependent. but things like these still affect me a lot. ARGH.

true, there are real single parent households and other fragmented families, but when such things happen to me, i will be "selfish" and block out everybody else's plights and moan n groan abt my own only.

old old old

in singapore, it's really easy to tell when u cross the line from adulthood to senior citizen-hood.
the senior citizen helpline is 1800 555 5555.
it's interesting to note that "5" in teochew is pronounced as "ngoh" which seems to sound like "old".

it's really tiring to look at and after the baby....but still fun! =P

summary

1.exercise

had a sudden burst of physical activities over the weekend. on sunday, met trish and huiyun for a 2hr swim, then we walked along the bus 10 route from tanah merah to mandarin gardens. i think we took at least 1 and 1/2 hrs? nearly dieded at the end of it. when i got off the bus at my home, i was walking even more briskly than usual, because i was afraid to show my jelly legs. that would increase my chances of attracting a robber or a rapist or something. then i wouldnt have the strength to fight them off.

and tennis at keVII hall on monday! haha..i could hardly wake up in time coz i had reached home at 1130pm the previous night. the sun really wore us out, and we (sharon n i) declared that we were both "off-form". hehehe...

2.running

well this is an extension of the exercise part actually. in the past 3 days, i have run for 2 buses. in each case, i sprinted an estimated 200m to catch the bus. thankfully, my teva sandals were making super loud "PIAK PIAK PIAK" noises and the drivers waited for me. =P
this reminds me of a sports day in vj, where we ran 400m interfac races or something. a lot of pple said that i ran loudly! hahahah..and that was with running shoes, on the rubbery track!

anyway, i havent run for buses for a looooong time. feels good! hehe...i hereby encourage everyone to start running for buses!
(well, pple in heels AND SKIRT can't really do so....too bad)

3. visiting
i took public transport to my sis's house yest. that was her first day home alone: her hubby went back to work. 87 to sengkang, then nel fr sengkang to punggol, and lrt to her stop. the worst part of the journey was when i had a little stopover at the sengkang shopping centre, Compassvale. (izzid? cant rem the name)
was queuing up in yoshinoya, and there was a jc boy (haha..yes! little boy) in front of me. suddenly 5 girls in sch u came up to him and started doing stupid girl chat like "eh, you so nice ah, help us queue up?", "hmm..can help me buy a beef bowl meal?" etc...

they were BLATANTLY cutting queue lor! dammit. their sch u was light blue, but i didnt feel like they were from catholic jc. maybe from some secondary sch, but i still felt that they were fr jc. argh. then i called my sis and told her pretty loudly, "eh, jie ah, there is a bunch of stupid jc kids who just cut queue and the queue is very long. u want to eat something else?"
i am pleased to report that the stoopid useless boy squirmed when he heard me. HEHEHEHE! stupid jc kids!!

ugh....in the end bought wanton mee from the kopitiam near my sis's home.
(eh, actually, i think i also did those queue cutting things in vj and in public last time. hehe.....but now that i'm no more in jc, i can employ double standards and scold them! hehehehe)

ok i'm gg crazy. :P

heehee

got an sms from an ex-Mech eng classmate that he recently met a guy who attended the same rovers orientation camp that we attended, in 2001.

"he claims to be ur night walk partner.. then he got all excited when i mention u... shld i giv him ur number? hehehe.."

uh i really cant recall a face, but i rem the walk. it was fright night on ubin, where the freshies went into the ubin forest as guy-girl pairs, one pair at a time.
it was really damn dark inside there la, and the ghosts were quite gd, so i told my partner, "eh, can i hold ur hand ah? don't run away hor."

yes yes, i abandoned all forms of independence and girl gungho and relied on a guy fren of 2 days to bring me thru the forest.
he held my hand throughout the walk and didnt do something stupid like suddenly turning around to BOO me. but he wasn't a total blockhead either. i think it was a comfortable collaboration. anyway, i prob didnt rem his face coz it was so dark..hehehhe...

i think that was the only time i held a guy's hand after pre-primary, besides alvin.
BUT, the circumstances were unusual.

ok, end of story.

heehee....

traumatised

by the sight of a male butt exposed 1/2, then 3/4. on bus 15 from marine parade. his damn pyjama trousers were damn low and almost saw his whole butt when he bent down to pick up coins.
wanted to write a lot, but it is too traumatising.

so intriguing!!

omg....

i'm reading "Strange matters", a book about space and time. one gd thing abt the bk is that it is very new, so the stuff inside is more current and up to date than others i have read.

i'm 3/4 thru the bk, and am at a part where scientists propose a string theory (that everything is made up of strings rather than particles). don't understand it much yet, but the theory implies there might be 10 or 11 dimensions, and that the universe might only be a few millimetres thick in one dimension. kind of like a sheet of paper. a few inches length, a few inches breath, but probably only 0.5 mm thick.

so exciting!! i can't wait to finish reading the book and other books after that!
currently i only have a very sketchy idea of what all these pple are talking abt, and i really want to be able to piece it all together and get a clear picture. =D